The End of 2010

This is not the post that I had planned. Earlier today, I decided that I would not go to bed tonight until I went through my pictures from the year, picked out my favorites, posted those favorites to document the year along with my thoughts.

Two problems keep me from doing this:

1. I LOVE pictures. I take pictures of everything. I am good at making sure that the picture is taken. I am not good at keeping them organized...or even remembering that I have them! So, I start to look back and there are SO many that are my favorite. And, I am not the quickest decision maker in the world, so that's going to take a little more time than I had planned...and when I don't have problem number 2...

2. I keep finding myself staring at this adorable little baby girl dressed in camo with pink lace...the one that wants to hold one of my hands while she sleeps. Yes, that means I am typing all of this with one hand.

Due to those problems, the favorite pictures, people and moments will come later this weekend.

Even though I'm not doing as I had planned, I can't let the year end without reflecting a bit...

2010 has been full of ups and....well, ups for us. Really...I'm not trying to come across as having the perfect life, because it's far from it! There are THOSE days...you know those days! There are a couple of things that I would change if I could...one in particular...but, it isn't my place to do so. But at the end of the day, end of the week, end of the year, I have absolutely NOTHING to complain about. God has blessed me overwhelmingly this year. Way more than I deserve. My two greatest accomplishments were passing the CPA exam on the first try and doing so before the second accomplishment, the birth of my precious daughter. Our lives have been full of more joy and excitement than we could ever imagine! We have an amazing family and incredible friends.

The only thing that could make the year any better would have been to see Bobo meet Carsyn. You see, I'm still extremely weak...not good at this at all. But since I can sit here and cry my eyes out over my computer with nobody looking, I'm gonna try.

I miss him. I miss him so terribly much. I would give anything to see him, anything for him to hold his niece. Anything. I do get a hug every once in a while...he comes to see me in my dreams and, somehow, a hug is always worked in the dream. It's so real...there's really no way to explain it. I will never, ever be whole...none of us will until we see him again. For now, I am at some level of peace knowing that he did meet Carsyn. He met her long before I did. I know God let him help shape her little features...probably the ones that remind me of him. I know that when she smiles in her sleep that her angel, Uncle Bobo, is talking to her. I know he is watching over her...I know he is watching over us. I know that he is in a much better place than we are.

Bobo, we love you and we miss you. And, if you have fireworks in heaven, please, please don't let your bag of fireworks catch on fire ;)

That's all I can handle for now. Thanks for listening :)

Here's to a great year ahead!

Love,
Lauren